Monday, March 31, 2008

I found the poem below while I was visiting a new blog today. I was so blessed to read it! It's words give life to my struggles lately. I pray that I am learning the truth that God's way are good, and above all, are meant to mold me into His image. May I continue in faith, relying solely on the grace of Jesus to carry me through and enable me to walk when the path is dark and trust when the night seems unending.

Paradoxes of Prayer


I asked God for strength, that I might achieve.

I was made weak, that I might learn humbly to obey......

I asked for health, that I might do greater things.

I was given infirmity, that I might do better things.....

I asked for riches, that I might be happy.

I was given poverty that I might be wise......

I asked for power, that I might have the praise of men.

I was given weakness, that I might feel the need of God.....

I asked for all things, that I might enjoy life.

I was given life, that I might enjoy all things......

I got nothing that I asked for-

but everything I had hoped for.

Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered-

I am among all, most richly blessed!

~Author Unknown~

Be Still My Soul

Be still, my soul: the Lord is on thy side.

Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain.

Leave to thy God to order and provide;

In every change, He faithful will remain.

Be still, my soul: thy best, thy heavenly Friend

Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.


Be still, my soul: thy God doth undertake

To guide the future, as He has the past.

Thy hope, thy confidence let nothing shake;

All now mysterious shall be bright at last.

Be still, my soul: the waves and winds still know

His voice Who ruled them while He dwelt below.


Be still, my soul: when dearest friends depart,

And all is darkened in the vale of tears,

Then shalt thou better know His love, His heart,

Who comes to soothe thy sorrow and thy fears.

Be still, my soul: thy Jesus can repay

From His own fullness all He takes away.


Be still, my soul: the hour is hastening on

When we shall be forever with the Lord.

When disappointment, grief and fear are gone,

Sorrow forgot, love’s purest joys restored.

Be still, my soul: when change and tears are past

All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.


Be still, my soul: begin the song of praise

On earth, believing, to Thy Lord on high;

Acknowledge Him in all thy words and ways,

So shall He view thee with a well pleased eye.

Be still, my soul: the Sun of life divine

Through passing clouds shall but more brightly shine.

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Explanations

I know that my blog hasn't had a lot of regular posts the last couple weeks. I've been busy with staying busy. This time in March is always difficult for us, and there was only so much I felt that I could keep sharing here on the blog.

I've also been so burdened for Kristy, the young lady who lost her husband this weekend. The Lord will not allow me to forget her plight. Also, not something I could just keep posting about.

Motherhood has been requiring an increasing amount of my time, not that it ever stops taking time, but it seems to be harder these days. Maybe it's me--maybe it's the fact that my three-year old has needed so much extra care and discipline and training lately. Whatever the causes, I've been burdened and not felt able to share a lot of my thoughts publicly.

There are so many areas in which the Lord is dealing with me. My heart has not been right. But I'm beginning to see that repentance and grace are evident each day. Am I still struggling with my areas of weakness? Yes, sometimes, but the Lord remains faithful and is teaching me and convicting me and never leaving me alone. I thank Him for that.

So, be patient with me! The care-free posts about saving and shopping have just not been that important to me with all the serious issues I/we have been handling. I'll try to include more of that as I can, but I also want to be careful to use wisely what time I have and not allow this blog or any others to eat up every moment of my day. I'm beginning to learn more clearly what it means to think on the things of Christ continually and to be the Christian wife and mother I am meant to be, and I don't want to give that up or lose that conviction by becoming too wrapped up in keeping things fresh here. I hope you understand.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Mourn with those who mourn--

Please, please pray for this dear young lady! She lost her husband of only 10 weeks to a tragic boating accident. She's hurting and stunned and in need of the prayers of the saints during this time. You can read more about her here.

Monday, March 24, 2008

Another year of life

We had a good weekend. There were a lot of memories and some sadness, but there was also a lot of fun time just being together. This is the first year that I truly laughed on my daughter's birthday. My baby boy is to be credited for that accomplishment! How precious these two boys are that the Lord has given us!

My husband and I spent all day Saturday spending time together and celebrating my birthday. It's today! The Lord has blessed me with 27 years filled with blessings, goodness, love and joy. Every moment has been directed by God and orchestrated for His glory! My prayer for this year is that I will be renewed in my commitment to godliness and to living as if today were my last day. Thank you, Father, for another year to live for You.

Thursday, March 20, 2008

Comfort

Below are a few of the songs that the Lord has used to bring me comfort so many times throughout the last five years. Take the time to read the words and think of the Scriptures that are the source of their message. May the lyrics bless you as they have blessed me, and may the Lord use them to strengthen you if you too are in a difficult place today.

Who Am I--Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind

Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

Praise You In The Storm--Casting Crowns

I was sure by now God
You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

Homesick

You’re in a better place, I’ve heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I’ve rejoiced for you
But the reason why I’m broken the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home’s where my heart is then I’m out of place
Lord won’t you give me strength to make it through somehow
I‘ve never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord because I don’t understand Your ways
The reason why I wonder if I’ll ever know
But even if You showed me the hurt would be the same
Because I’m still here so far away from home

Chorus

In Christ there are no goodbyes
In Christ there is no end
So I’ll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again

words and music by MercyMe and Peter Kipley

Five Years Ago

I was thirty-nine weeks pregnant with our first baby. After two miscarriages within six months, the pregnancy was so exciting for us. But it was to all come crashing down.

No heartbeat--No fetal movement--No joyous ending to the long nine months, only tears and pain. Our daughter would never draw a breath or open her eyes. She would only ever be a memory that we carry still in our hearts.

I'm not sure sometimes how my husband and I made it through those first days. I know that God's presence was almost tangible at times when I thought the tears were going to destroy me. I know that Jesus was there with me every moment, even when the anger and bitterness began to come. I didn't know if I was ever going to be able to move on and be happy again. But as always, my Lord remained faithful. He kept me through every stage of grief. He brought me out of the darkness and confusion of loss. When the pain led to sin, He forgave and comforted me and drew me back to His side. His hands guided and kept us. His grace preserved our love for each other and protected our marriage. His wisdom led us through, and His sovereignty gave us two sons.

Hosea 6:1
Come, and let us return to the LORD: for he hath torn, and he will heal us; he hath smitten, and he will bind us up.

Psalm 115:3
But our God is in the heavens: he hath done whatsoever he hath pleased.

Joshua 1:9
...Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest. (Even through death and pain!!!)

Psalm 28:7
The LORD is my strength and my shield; my heart trusted in him, and I am helped: therefore my heart greatly rejoiceth; and with my song will I praise him.

Psalm 27:14
Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

WFMW--Rocks in My Dryer

Just another link-up. I'm going to attempt to start posting sometimes for the Works For Me Wednesday blog carnival. Check it out at Rocks In My Dryer for a lot of great tips and ideas! My post below is my first entry!! Yay!! I'm excited! :)

CVS helps

Once again, my adventures in CVS have made it possible to help someone. I was able to put together two large bags of household goods to give to a family in need! This is definitely the best reason to learn to shop frugally--the ability to share with others. Though we are not often able to financially help someone, my stockpile of CVS products allows us to be generous in giving towards needs that arise within our church and among our friends.

May I encourage you to venture out and begin to learn to shop this way if you have not already started?? It's been a fun experience! Above all, it's been a great way that I've been able to be a help to my husband and others.

So, go on over to Money Saving Mom to check out her CVS tutorials, or better yet, check out Supermarket Savings for a collection of e-books to get you started. Both have worked for me and are great ways to start learning the ropes!

Monday, March 17, 2008

4:53 am

Ok, linking up here!

4:53 am

A great blog that I've just started visiting! Check it out for some really creative posts. You'll enjoy the experience, believe me.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Frugal Fridays-Freebies

I am signed up to receive Cereal.com's newsletter which is always full of links to free samples. I also regularly check Walmart.com. Both are a great way to get started receiving free samples in the mail. If you fill out one or two of these free sample forms each day, you'll start to get little surprises in your mail box! Nothing's better than FREE!!!

Quaker Simple Harvest Sample

Glad ForceFlex Trash Bag

Jergen's Natural Glow Body Moisturizer

Garnier Nutritioniste Ultra-Lift

Dove Hair Care

Curel Life's Stages Moisturizer


Wednesday, March 12, 2008

My CVS-ing Update

There has been a decided lack of "deals from CVS" posts on my blog lately. Let me explain.

Honestly, I'm a big bit bummed about them cancelling all the cool coupons we've been using. I mostly have been trading in my few ECBs for the same amount of ECBs.

I've had trouble getting a regular supply of manufacturer's coupons to make it worth the effort of getting both my boys in and out of the store with my sanity intact. Don't get me wrong. They are generally well-behaved boys, but still, it's hard to sit that long when mommy's shopping. Ryan has gotten to yelling "NO!!" in a horrified tone as soon as he realizes we are going to CVS.

But, I digress.

I subscribed to the local paper hoping that would cure the serious lack of coupons in the paper bought off the stand, but alas, it did not. They still only put in a skinny little insert with not even half of the coupons to be found in a big city Sunday paper. I'm so cancelling my subscription. Making a note to self....

What are my options???? I don't live in an area where I can readily pick up a paper on a weekly basis. The local grocery store carries the Houston paper, but if you're not there EARLY Sunday morning, they run out. Doesn't work too well for me. I guess I'm going to be looking into getting a subscription to the Ft. Worth, Dallas or San Antonio paper. I hope it's worth the money.

Also, with the exception of last week, the deals lately just haven't appealed to me. I'm stocked up on all the essentials, so it just hasn't been worth the effort. I wanted to go last week, but with my parents leaving and our travelling, it just didn't work out.

So, when and if I get more motivated to regularly tackle CVS-ing, I'll post pictures and reports on how I'm doing. Until then, go check out Money Saving Mom and A Call To Higher Places for good deals and encouragement on getting started for yourself.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Sunset over Memory Lake


Learning to Fish

Daddy time!


My guys!

My precious sons

Little boys are fun!

My husband just came home with a little boy size fishing rod. Ryan's so excited, explaining how it all works to me and how Daddy's going to take him fishing! It's wonderful to see him that happy. I was invited to go along, but I'm thinking they'll have so much more fun having a father/son outing! My only regret is that my camera, which has been hiding in my side table since we moved, has a dead battery. Oh, well! Maybe next time they get decked out to go, I'll have it handy. We can pretend they're the first pictures. :)

Brandon is trying to walk. The results? Bumps and bruises galore! It's hard to be a boy, but it's a good thing to have the combination of Horner and Walker hard-headedness! hehe It's coming in handy these days! I'm hoping he survives this transition with only bruises and nothing worse. With Ryan stepping in to "help," there's no telling what could happen! Baby boys should come with warning labels--WARNING: Likely to cause premature graying, wrinkles and the sensation of heart attacks on a regular basis! Ah, but I wouldn't trade them in for anything in this world!

Quick question

Does anyone participate in the Box Tops program? If you do, let me know how it's working for you and how you go about getting the tops turned in. I'm new to all this, but since I've been getting so many brand name items for little money, I have started collecting the tops. Let me know! And if you don't participate and want to donate your tops to me, that would be GREAT!!!!

Friday, March 07, 2008

ONE YEAR!!

Happy anniversary, Steven and Nichole!! Can't believe it's already been a year! Awesome! We love you guys! We'll miss seeing you, but hope you have a great time away this weekend!

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Looking Back--Looking Ahead

It's almost two years since I first started this blog. My first post seems so long ago! I've had fun along the way, learning new things, exploring this amazing world of blogs!
I hope to begin to post some more meaningful thoughts and not just run of the mill, this is what's going on right now posts! I want to share more of the spiritual side of my life, my struggles and growth in the areas of Christian womanhood and motherhood. We'll see! I have to first get a handle on my time and get more organized with my daily routines. Lots of changes are taking place in our lives these days, and I'm having more responsibilities to consider and factor into the equation that is my life. So, stay tuned! You never know what may yet appear here at Rebekah's Thots!

Ideas

Ok, I've decided that my blog is getting downright BORING!!! I think every other post is about the same thing. I definitely need to get some new ideas flowing. Any ideas for me to consider???

Wednesday, March 05, 2008

Thank you to everyone who's prayed for and asked about Alarice. She is home now and beginning her recovery. Please continue to pray for her and the whole family.

Sickness, sickness, sickness! Both my boys have gone through another bout of the severe cold that's been hanging around for so long. We had three days of fever with each of them and they are both still coughing and have runny noses. I'm so looking forward to spring coming! I'm hoping it will bring an end to all this sickness when it ushers in the new season.

To complicate my life even more, :) my computer decided to get "sick" too and come down with a severe case of the trojans!!!! Thankfully, after three days of intense therapy (Thanks, Manu) it's back up and running better than before.

I didn't realize over the past year or so how much "free" time I actually had because of staying in my parents house! It's amazing me how much there is still left to do to get my new home up to par. With all the sickness, travelling and a multitude of other interruptions, we are slowly getting things together. This past weekend, my hubby and I spent the day going through stacks and stacks of boxes and organizing things into store, sell, and trash piles. Needless to say, we are all set to have a HUGE yard sale at the beginning of next month. Yay for progress!! hehe

I still have nothing hanging on my walls, but that's our next Saturday project. I'm hoping it will be next week since we will once again be in San Antonio this weekend.

A quick prayer request before I sign off for now--

My parents, Pat and Dianne Horner, will be flying out tomorrow afternoon to return to the mission field. Please keep them in prayer as this trip holds more challenges and difficulties than ever before. We trust that the Lord who sends them also goes before them to provide for every need that arises!