Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Our Hiding Place

Hiding Place

Steven Curtis Chapman

In the distance I can see the storm clouds, coming my way;
And I need to find a shelter before it starts to rain.
I turn and run to You, Lord,
You're the only place to go
Where unfailing love surrounds me
When I need it most.

You're my Hiding Place.
Safe in your embrace,
I'm protected from the storm that rages.
When the waters rise, and I run to hide,
Lord, in You I find, my Hiding Place.

I'm not asking you to take away my troubles, Lord,
'Cause it's through the stormy weather
I learn to trust you more.
But I thank You for the promise
That I have come to know:
Your unfailing love surrounds me
When I need it most!

You're my hiding place!
Safe in your embrace,
I'm protected from the storm that rages.
When the waters rise, and I run to hide,
Lord, in You I find my Hiding Place!

So, let Your children seek you while you may be found
'Cause You're our only Refuge when the rain comes pouring down!

You're our Hiding Place!
Safe in Your embrace,
We're protected from the storm that rages.
When the waters rise, and we run to hide,
Lord, in You, we find our Hiding Place!

Lord, in You, we find our Hiding Place!

Lord, You are our Hiding Place!

Lord, you are my Hiding Place!

Let me hide myself in You.

This is one of the songs I chose in remembrance of my daughter, Abigail. It was played at her funeral. To this day, these words are such a comfort and a promise to me! How awesome it is to know, without and beyond any shadow of a doubt, that my Lord, the Almighty God of the universe, is MY hiding place. It is in this Cleft of the Rock that I find shelter during difficult times.

Trust in the LORD for ever: for in the LORD Jehovah is everlasting strength.

In this verse, "everlasting strength" is literally, "the rock of ages". Jesus Christ is our Rock-- Our shelter in the time of storms!

Psalm 61:2~

From the ends of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

This is my prayer, not just for today, but for every day, every temptation, every trial. May the Lord grant me the wisdom to always remember His promises when those stormy winds begin to blow in my life!

My heart and my thanks go out to all my friends and family today. I know there are many across this nation, even across the world, that are praying for me and my family today. May the Lord bless each of you for mourning with those that mourn and weeping with those that weep! Your prayers are felt and appreciated so very much!

Friday, March 17, 2006

Psalm 46 and other thots

I was reading yesterday in the Psalms. I made it to Psalm 46. I was amazed, as I always am, at how the LORD knows exactly what I need when I sit to read His word. What a comfort it is to know that He is our refuge, He will have, indeed, does have, the victory over all nations! What a promise that is when we consider missions, the spread of the gospel here at home and abroad. "Be still and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen; I will be exalted in the earth."

On a different note....This month holds many memories and marks many special moments in my life, beside the sad, but precious memories of my daughter. The Lord saved me four years ago this month! How thankful I remain...every day, by His grace!...for His mercy towards me, for His condescending to look upon me and bring me out of my pit of miry clay! I was, and still am, so undeserving! I fail so often. I continue to allow sin in my life! YET, He remains always faithful, drawing me continuously back to Himself. My prayer is that I will learn more of Christ, that I will be conformed everyday to HIS image and not the image of the world, that I will become more and more the godly woman my heavenly Father wants me to become.

This month also marks my birthday! Wow! I can't believe I'm going to be 25! It seems like such a milestone! I'm looking forward to spending some special time with my husband! (Thank you, Aunt Mary for keeping Ryan for us! You're making this time possible!)

Well, I have a full day ahead of me. May the Lord bless!

Wednesday, March 15, 2006


Three years, next week...has it been that long already? The memories come; it seems like yesterday at times. The feelings, the emotions, the pictures in my head--they all wear on me.

I can still see her face. I can still feel her weight on my chest. I see those perfect, little fingers...perfect, yet, lifeless. Those beautiful eyes, forever closed. That perfect, rosebud mouth, forever silent. Yet, how her memory stays alive in my mind!The sights, the sounds, the smells of spring...they used to be heralds of a beautiful, happy time of year. Now, they bring sadness. They remind of a baby girl "born an angel."

Will I allow these thoughts to overwhlem me this time? Will I lose myself once again in sorrow and grief? Is this how I will always remember her...with grief and tears? Will there never be smiles and laughter?

There can be...I know that. I've even had that! Yet, once again this time of year brings difficult news, difficult situations. Will I forget the good, in light of the weighty matters?O, Lord, may it not be so!

Bring to mind my wonderful memories of carrying her, of sharing little moments with Steven, moments only he and I have with her. Help me to remember her moving within me, full of life and promise! Help me remember those nights spent lying awake dreaming of my firstborn! Help me to recapture the joys of that time!

Above all, help me to feel your overshadowing love for me. Remind me that death is NOT the end. One day, dear Lord, one day....

Jesus, hold my little one close and kiss her for me. Tell her how much she is missed and loved. How I long for the day when I will join her in praising and worshipping You. The day when all this pain and sorrow will be left behind, and truly, only joy remain!

Enable me now to keep on, to be strong, to love the son You have allowed me to keep. How precious he is. What a gift! What an answer to my cries! Show me how to be a strength, a help to the man I love, as he too grieves our daughter. May Your love and grace sourround and uplift us over the next few days.

Thank you Father, for all your promises-- promises fulfilled, promises to come! Thank you for redemption, for adoption, for salvation, for Your Son my Saviour! May I never lose sight of the bigger picture! Hold close to my heart the knowledge of YOUR Child's life and death and all it accomplishes for me. I love you , Lord.