Friday, December 03, 2010

Our newest news

So, this was a surprise.  Absolutely unexpected.  Absolutely "unplanned".  Guess the Lord knows best, because my thoughts were more along the line that I wasn't up to or ready for being pregnant again ANY time soon.  I'm praying His grace will be sufficient as He has promised! 

Am I happy?  YES!!  

Am I petrified?  YES to that too!!

Honestly, this past year has been exhausting and SUCH a struggle for me and my sweet husband. We had been saying that we wanted and needed a bit of a break, some time to just BE, before considering a new member of our family.  I have struggled tremendously this past year with extreme postpartum-like symptoms.  It got to the point that I began to wonder if I was going to need medical help to get past what I was feeling and experiencing.  Thankfully, the Lord showed me that that the cause was something relatively simple and could be addressed in a more natural way, but I only began in July to treat the problems and am still struggling with lingering symptoms.

If I am being completely honest, even after a good result from blood tests that showed proper levels of hormones, I'm fearful of losing this baby because of all the problems I've had this past year and because I know how important hormone levels are to a successful pregnancy. 

So, I'm once again on a roller-coaster ride of emotions!  Pray that I will be able to TRUST and REST as this pregnancy progresses.  I know in my head that the Lord is good, that He does all things well.  I want to hold to this in my heart as well!!  From now to July when this itty bitty is expected to be born, I desire to keep some equilibrium and NOT stay on the roller-coaster of feelings I'm having right now!

Oh, and on a lighter note, I'm really hoping and praying for a baby GIRL!!!  We want some PINK around here!!!!!!!!  

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

We are so excited for you and will lift this little one and you in prayer!! Love to you and yours.
Love, The Birdwells